I have never felt like this before, never felt as low in my life, as I am today. I can admittedly say, I don’t know when I have felt happy for a day.
I have been feeling a lot worse recently. I can’t concentrate on ANYTHING- my work, my social life etc.
There are moments when you just want to cry.
I can just cry non-stop.
I can’t elaborate enough on how much I hate myself. I hate who I have become.
I just wish that I didn’t exist anymore, I wish that with all my heart, I don’t want to see my friends, I don’t want my family to know what I think, I know that it would frustrate them.
I envy anyone who seems to be living a carefree life, I wish I could be someone else, I wish I could be happy and smiling, but I can’t.
I don’t know what to do with myself anymore.